#60 Last one trying

This isn't an art post, btw: go away

I was really discouraged today. I often see arts for people, so much better than whatever I'm capable of doing, no matter how I would try. Even more with captions like: "just a sketch" or "I'm only starting"

Don't get me wrong, I'm not jealous or mad that there are people better than me. I'm sure they had to put in an insane amount of work to get this far... I'm just afraid that I will never be able to even get close.

That I don't have it in me to work tirelessly days and nights, never stopping, always trying. That I will never be good enough.

I was ready to write off this week. But I know I would be even more mad at myself for stopping again.

So, here we are. Trying again. I guess it's the best we can do. Try over and over again... hoping that it will work out in the end.

This one is really quick (literally 20 minutes of recording), so not much to show.

It's funny how placement of the elements can change how we see the face: here Ide looks sad, but on the finished piece, she is more annoyed or offended.

All it took was lifting the eyes and mouth up.

Doing this brought me joy, really. Trying feels a little better than drowning in doubts. I'm happy that I can make Ide so easily, a year ago I could not even imagine doing a piece like this.

We can keep trying, together. Maybe we will never reach the top, but it's still better than never standing up.

Please try, I know you have strengh for one more.