Who?

Ehmn... Hello? What are you doing here?

I didn't expect anyone to come to this place... Are you really that bored? Or are you just lost?

Anyway, might as well greet you properly. Ekhm... WELCOME TO MY DOMAIN (sounds cool, right?).

Here you can call me Citrus.

Why Citrus? Citruses are colorful, bitter, and it really hurts when you put them on a wound, just like me.

Why?

Why am I here, you ask? Why are we all here? What is the reason? Philosophy and studies about the sense of life aren't my strongest side, so instead I will tell you a story.

On the internet was a person. No one big or extraordinarily influential but really loved and important for some. I would rather not focus on the past, so I will give this person a codename... what about “dorca”? Unfortunately, because of reasons, she had to cease her activities and go back to the abyss.

I was devastated, but I wanted to do something for her. Then I realized I'm terrible at everything. My art is comparable to a rat run over on a highway, my writing skill is even worse. Generally, I am as talentless as someone can be.

After some time and drinks, it hit me. I have a fantastic advantage! All of this means that if I can learn something, everyone can. Always, when I tried to learn anything, all I heard was “just do it” or “you will be getting better" and the worst of all: "it's easy". My response always was: NO, IT IS NOT!

So here I will be documenting my torment of a completely incompetent person trying to do things. Maybe it will help you learn about something, or perhaps you will just have a good laugh looking at me.

Anyway, there is only one thing I think you have to remember: if I can do this, YOU can.

What?

Whatever. Or rather, everything. Expect mostly pixels (not art yet!), with my commentary, uncensored, raw, vile, and cruel. I want to create an authentic image of someone with zero talent or any other redeeming qualities, trying to do something with his life. It will be rough, monotonic, or straight-up pathetic at times, but that's how I am.

My goal is to learn how to make people feel needed and important. As a secondary, I hope someone will see all this struggle and get some strength from it (or at least have a good laugh). That would be wonderful.