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# #80 Deafening
- URL: https://www.citrusexists.com/80-deafening/
- Published: 2026-04-19T21:13:26.000Z
- Updated: 2026-04-19T21:13:26.000Z
- Author: CitrusExists
- Tags: PixelArt

Something is really wrong, and somehow I can't point out what.

Oh, you thought I was talking about the pixel? No, that's easy, I know exactly what's missing. Skill.

I just feel like, in general, I'm not doing what I should. But I have no idea what I should be doing. I love pixels. Really recently it's the only thing that grants me a piece of mind. And yet I feel sick just thinking about doing them. WHY?

This pixel was made so I can scream into the Twitter void. I know no one will answer, and yet I still did it. I'm just that stupid, I guess. 

Recently (today) I also started working on something new. My 3D imagination sucks, like, really. From what I found, a good way of improving it, is drawing boxes. So ye, apart from the usual, I will post here my terrible boxes, to see if I'm making any improvement. Brace yourself, they are even worse than my pixels.

![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/6d/f0/6df020d6-b03c-4a5b-8644-7e28dcb05753/content/images/2026/04/Zrzut-ekranu-2026-04-19-222847.png)

I don't understand the hair. Is the angle wrong, or the whole structure? I feel like I do the same thing 3 times and get 3 different results.

![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/6d/f0/6df020d6-b03c-4a5b-8644-7e28dcb05753/content/images/2026/04/Zrzut-ekranu-2026-04-19-222906.png)

Another thing to work on, I guess. I really start to question how many of those "parts" I will be realisicly able to learn.

![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/6d/f0/6df020d6-b03c-4a5b-8644-7e28dcb05753/content/images/2026/04/Zrzut-ekranu-2026-04-19-222922-2.png)

Just the simple eye.

![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/6d/f0/6df020d6-b03c-4a5b-8644-7e28dcb05753/content/images/2026/04/Zrzut-ekranu-2026-04-19-222934.png)

Now it looks a little better, I guess. But it's still so flat. 

![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/6d/f0/6df020d6-b03c-4a5b-8644-7e28dcb05753/content/images/2026/04/Zrzut-ekranu-2026-04-19-222951.png)

A little polish.

![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/6d/f0/6df020d6-b03c-4a5b-8644-7e28dcb05753/content/images/2026/04/Zrzut-ekranu-2026-04-19-223010.png)

Some shades and lines. The only interesting thing is this weird antialiasing. The outline of hair constantly switches color from darker to lighter, maybe if I had added the third shade, it would have become even smoother?

![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/6d/f0/6df020d6-b03c-4a5b-8644-7e28dcb05753/content/images/2026/04/Zrzut-ekranu-2026-04-19-223017.png)

Ide, as always, cute, even if simple. I wish I could give you more, girl. I promise I will try. 

Now time for boxes.

From what I learned, these lines should all connect in one place... but I'm really far for that.

![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/6d/f0/6df020d6-b03c-4a5b-8644-7e28dcb05753/content/images/2026/04/image.png)

![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/6d/f0/6df020d6-b03c-4a5b-8644-7e28dcb05753/content/images/2026/04/image-1.png)

This one is good (I think???).

![](https://storage.ghost.io/c/6d/f0/6df020d6-b03c-4a5b-8644-7e28dcb05753/content/images/2026/04/image-2.png)

And that's what my average box looks like.

That's all for today. I hope you are doing well. No matter what happens, I still believe in you.

Bye bye